Went to the dermatologist awhile ago to end this crazy breakout I've been having because it's really breaking my self-esteem and self-confidence that I've worked so hard to build up by myself throughout the years...and I'm not gonna let just a simple acne-polluted face ruin all my hard work.
My derma (dermatologist) just gave me a reality check...and I'm quite sad and disappointed at the same time.
After her very long explanation about what's really happening about my skin condition, I've realized many things:
1.] I have an oily, acne-prone, sensitive skin (and I'm also prone to warts! F!)...and when I say acne-prone, the derma told me that I have a chronic, RECURRING case of acne which can be caused by hormones (I'm already on the pill) and hypersensitivity to wrong skin care products. This means that I'm have to deal with this crap for the rest of my miserable life.
2.] Treating my CURRENT skin condition is the easy part, MAINTAINING to have a clear face is the hard part. I asked my derma about her suggestion on skincare brands that I could use for my skin type and she suggested Clinique (freaking expensive to use for the rest of my life!!!) or Cetaphil (which I don't really like because I don't think it even worked on my skin)...
OR...she told me that the general rule in finding a moisturizer is that it should not be scented, oil-free, noncomedogenic, hypoallergenic and not colored.....so does this mean that I have to make a trial and error test on products that would suit my skin??? = This will surely make me a very poor, scar and zit-polluted faced old hag in the end.
3.] I've realized that I cannot just try and experiment with some random cosmetics (high-end or drugstore) out of curiosity, even if the packaging is great (I'm a sucker for cute and elegant packaging) or even if they say the product is high quality (e.g Chanel, YSL, Dior, Guerlain, etc.), hence reviews about cosmetics will be even more limited than it already is.
4.] I cannot test out skincare products whenever I feel like it even if the products are made for my oily, acne-prone, sensitive skin because it could worsen my skin condition, hence reviews on skincare products will also be very limited then it already is.
5.] I can't stay awake very late like I used to anymore..I have to sleep early even if I don't want to. Yes! I don't like sleeping early. I'm nocturnal, my brain works better at night onwards than in the morning. It also makes me feel very comfortable and at peace when I'm awake late at night because I get to be very productive with writing...this may sound funny to you, but staying awake late until 4 am in the morning saved me from making a crap full of nonsense in my term paper in high school and in my thesis in college. I don't know if this is even normal...at least I can work as a call center agent right?
6.] I have to save up more money than I used to just to find a product that will really work on my skin even if it would be a high-end brand...which makes me sad because I like bargains and cute, cheap stuff...I usually stray from high-end everything because I feel like I don't fit in that category...yes, I know I'm weird.
7.] One things for sure, Lipstick will always be my best friend. I could still wear makeup every now and then, but I won't risk suffering this full-blown, crazy breakout anymore. Even if it breaks my heart, I have to let go of many of my cosmetics (especially bb creams) in exchange for clearer skin. I don't think I would be wearing blush most of the time...which makes me want to cry because I recently bought cream and powder blushes.
8.] I will have to make my skincare regimen as simple as possible. As long as the products will work for me.
9.] My derma told me that I can only use moisturizer if needed on dry areas on my skin. So that means commercials that tell us, moisturizers are a must in every skincare are total crap, but SUNSCREEN on the other hand, is a must everyday!
Ok, I think that's my rant for now...I know this is a waste of time, but the level of frustration and depression I'm feeling right now is overwhelming that I can't even talk about it to my husband (I tried, but he did not understand which made me a bit pissed off...not gonna do any talk that will make his brain bleed anymore--'cause he can't handle alien scientific words.)
Pls. help...what cosmetics (noncmedogenic, hypoallergenic, great for sensitive, acne-prone, oily skin) and skin care could you suggest that would still work for my skin condition? I research each and every single one before I purchase anything.